I've been relatively stable since I posted my last message, although by no means relaxed or in a good mood. I can no longer tell whether this is just normal apprehension and loneliness, or if I'm merely in a relatively controlled phase of what I've been worried is full-blown depression.

Time will tell, I suppose. Our move is imminent.

Had a good game last night, although I was jangling all night because I knew it would be over all too soon. I've been looking forward to games a lot more lately (and dreading their end more). I know that depressives gravitate towards anything that will relieve their pain even momentarily, and I worry that this is the reason. Then again, lonely people will also gravitate towards whatever social contact they have available.